Jumat, 16 Mei 2008

the most important in life

i will remember that i can do anything i set my mind to. i can achieve any goal, fulfill any desire, and reach any star. i will look toward tomorrow with the conviction that i can make it better. i will know that a brighter future is within my reach. as long as i have the strength to keep trying, the courage to keep striving, and the confidence to keep believing in myself.

i will remember to live life and enjoy it. i will remember to make my days happy, to fill my life with love, to slow down and appreciate every moment. i will remember what is most important in life.

and i will shape my world around it.

Sabtu, 10 Mei 2008

something to write home about

Mother, I know you know i'm having a good time
i'm sleeping so little but i'm living the good life
no need to worry got a place to lay my head down no need to worry i got a place to sleep

Jumat, 09 Mei 2008

Rabu, 07 Mei 2008

public apology

take notes that every little thing i did in these passed weeks doesnt have anything to do with others that has nothing to do with me and my choice of decision and under any circumstances dont hear anything that has nothing to do with your life regarding my choice of decision and your point of judgements.
fellow friends, collegues, buddies, if you hear something that doesnt came out from me personally, dont take it seriously, and dont take premature judgements.
because everyone has the rights to chose, to be loved and to love, and i know losing someone you care is a pain in the ass an all that, but taking everyone out of the one you cared's life just aint nice.
i'm sorry if my acts means hurting one's heart.
i'm sorry that i, sometimes made wrong decision.
i'm sorry that i, ...dont know what else to say in this letter of apology
i just want you to know that








i'll miss you so good.

Minggu, 04 Mei 2008

On A Monday

hey bloggy, another entry..
ok it's been the second time i cried singing tatiana and i dont know whatsupwiththat but it felt really really really good.. it has become an addiction! yeah it feels really good letting out everyword like you really mean it.. i really mean it
anyway, it's 9.16am, i had my good sleep.. i set my alarm to ring on 2.58am to woke bella because she wanted to do some praying stuff, and back to sleep afterwards until 10 minutes ago, when i walked to the tv room my mom was watching recorded stuff from tv, and she said "tuh, bella" lol.. i gagged and choked while sipping my morning orange juice.. HEY! de javu.. ah i've been here before! i dont remember when.. shit i've been in this situation, i know i've been in this situation before! ah well forget it.. anyway, yeah, bella's sinetron.. lol.. well she's ok.. but the sinetron is mediocre crap xp
she's like the sweetest girl i know.. wait, i dont want to write that here.
since bella, i'm not in the mood of being in a relationship yet, i thought i am, but turns out im not.. i've been goin out (in a friendly basis) with a really nice girl with the initial E.C and she's ok. everybody knows her, she's the daughter of a very famous actress, i liked her. but it just doesnt feels right. the chemistry was just aint.. right.. i like her, i really like her, i care for you and i loved her. just so you know.
and i know this other girl, her intial is A, she's a model, gadsam '04, a collegian majoring psychology, super cute, physically attractive, a 9,5, there's nothing wrong when you see her with your bare eyes, one of those girl that when you meet somewhere on the street you'd tell your friends "oh, i want that! i want her!" we spent the few days back together day and night but then i sensed something terribly aint right, she has a problem with honesty and that's a fatal flaw.. hey if you're reading this, i just want you to know that i know every lie you've said, e v e r y s i n g l e o n e o f ' e m. she makes up stories, dude. i always seem to catch you when you're lying about the stupidest of things. it's like a disease man, she just cant stop. we had talks on the parking lot and i told her this had to stop, i dont want to be in too deep..
ah well, that's enough about me and my boring relationship.. i didnt mean to hurt anybody.. aint that normal to want the best for ourselves and others?
i'm gonna stick with 'no commitment' yet until i've found the right one.

ah, the privelegde of being single.

anyway, what's bella doin right now?