if this is not right, then this is worng

if it's not right, it's wrong
next question is what's the thing that making it wrong?
if this is the same home, how can i be so lost?
so many things i've done and some of it i did it wrong
and there's the unforgettable
today like any other i'll make sure
to remind my self to forget the unforgettables
and one of them was you

im a dork

at the beginning of the day i keep asking rethorical question,
"will it be the same today like it was yesterday?"
i mean cmon, what kind of asshole asks that kind of question to himself?
am i really that bad?
im just this kid who still doesnt know certain places cool people go to hang out
or prescripted drugs to missuse to distract all their sad-ass problems
(oh i wish i had one)

am i having a depression?

will this make me suicidal?

i guess when you were once an asshole, and then you're up, everyone u used to know tries to pull you down

well sadly,
the worst thing about the end of the day, is that tomorrow it will start all over again

fight for your dearest ones

the world may have turned against you

the world may have said something bad about you

maybe you've done something bad

maybe you've been bad

you just keep goin, alright?

because not everything you do in this world is right to others

just

do

whatever

you

think

is

best

for

you

because it might turns out the best to others

because everything happens for a reason

and you are here for a reason

and you're reading this for a reason

so

make a move

go on and make a difference

you'll never know until you lost you're chances

and as for me,

i never regret all the things that i've done

i only regret things that i didn't do

because i try to do it all.









have you done something to your life today?

sometimes sunrises are better then sunsets

hey.
these past two days.. i hardly feel a thing.. iono whatsupwiththat.. i cant feel my feet touching the ground, my heart is thumping like a mad horse, i cant even catch up my own beat.. the end is coming, maybe this is a death note.
well, i guess, in the end, we all starts thinkin about the beginning.. it's been great knowing you all, enough despise

"the end of the world is coming
and im going to have unfinished business.

if today be the day that i die,
then tomorrow is just another day i will never see"

scratch that.

why am i so dark? when there's light shining all over me, rays that she reflected from the very first time i laid my eyes on her fireflamed eyes.

hello.

is there anyone there?

hello.

is it just me for being small or the universe got so big?

bloggy, sorry to left you cold

yeah, i've brought a new def, thats why i never made a single post in a long time here..
you want updates? i'm as happy and thrilled to tell you news about my so called career, so i got signed with this production company to do a movie soundtrack, my 2 songs went through and you will hear it in the movies! and this song, 'dibalik hari esok' is the promotional song for the movie, they'll make the music video with footages from the movie.. how cool is that? if you wanna hear the accoustic version (the one that will be in the movie) check out www.myspace.com/ihcodagedas i'll be at the studio soon recording the full band version of that song with my band pee wee gaskins.
so, i just got back from Bali with rufio, right.. i had tons of funs there hanging out with Rufio.. i mean, GOD! it's rufio! i've listened to their songs since junior highs! they're legendary in the punk scene here.. its like, all the succesful melodic punk band started their gig playing Rufio.. and im such a lucky bastard hanging out with them so close like theyre my homies, i bet no one never had the chance like i had :) yeah it was fun
love life, i dont think too much of it now, just going with the flow.. make new friends for sure.. whatsup with people talking trash behind my back.. well its up to them anyway, i try to care less, i just keep on going keep on going keep on going and here i am.. what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger, thats for sure

hows everybody doin?

i wanna go watch a movie today.. maybe x-files.. since im a huge fan of the tv series.. whats mulder and scully up to now? i wonder.. and i cant wait for hellboy! i bet its gonna be awesome.. im an all time movie worm.. you ask me about movies, any movie, debate on it, or just talk about it, im happy to respond.. eva and i can talk about movies all nite until dawn.. i used to talk about movies with my brother, but since he's having his own family i never talk about movies with him.. well he's too busy with my naphew, so he cant spend his time watching movies like the old days.. our favorite all time movies was Indiana Jones, Star Wars, and LOTR.. even when im 40 years old i'd still talk about it! well my dad is 52 and he just cant stop talking about it.. thats my family's all time favorite.. right after Goonies.. my mom, in the other hand, she's not a big movie fan.. i mean, she even slept during the fight scenes of batman and robin for like.. 15 minutes.. but she cried watching artificial intelligent, my favorite too..

well i have to hit the shower, a friend of mine ask me to watch this movie with her so i better get ready

see you anytime soon blog

the most important in life

i will remember that i can do anything i set my mind to. i can achieve any goal, fulfill any desire, and reach any star. i will look toward tomorrow with the conviction that i can make it better. i will know that a brighter future is within my reach. as long as i have the strength to keep trying, the courage to keep striving, and the confidence to keep believing in myself.

i will remember to live life and enjoy it. i will remember to make my days happy, to fill my life with love, to slow down and appreciate every moment. i will remember what is most important in life.

and i will shape my world around it.

something to write home about

Mother, I know you know i'm having a good time
i'm sleeping so little but i'm living the good life
no need to worry got a place to lay my head down no need to worry i got a place to sleep

words of the day

when work feels overwhelming, just remember that you're going to die

public apology

take notes that every little thing i did in these passed weeks doesnt have anything to do with others that has nothing to do with me and my choice of decision and under any circumstances dont hear anything that has nothing to do with your life regarding my choice of decision and your point of judgements.
fellow friends, collegues, buddies, if you hear something that doesnt came out from me personally, dont take it seriously, and dont take premature judgements.
because everyone has the rights to chose, to be loved and to love, and i know losing someone you care is a pain in the ass an all that, but taking everyone out of the one you cared's life just aint nice.
i'm sorry if my acts means hurting one's heart.
i'm sorry that i, sometimes made wrong decision.
i'm sorry that i, ...dont know what else to say in this letter of apology
i just want you to know that

that

that

that

that

that

that

..

i'll miss you so good.

On A Monday

hey bloggy, another entry..
ok it's been the second time i cried singing tatiana and i dont know whatsupwiththat but it felt really really really good.. it has become an addiction! yeah it feels really good letting out everyword like you really mean it.. i really mean it
anyway, it's 9.16am, i had my good sleep.. i set my alarm to ring on 2.58am to woke bella because she wanted to do some praying stuff, and back to sleep afterwards until 10 minutes ago, when i walked to the tv room my mom was watching recorded stuff from tv, and she said "tuh, bella" lol.. i gagged and choked while sipping my morning orange juice.. HEY! de javu.. ah i've been here before! i dont remember when.. shit i've been in this situation, i know i've been in this situation before! ah well forget it.. anyway, yeah, bella's sinetron.. lol.. well she's ok.. but the sinetron is mediocre crap xp
she's like the sweetest girl i know.. wait, i dont want to write that here.
since bella, i'm not in the mood of being in a relationship yet, i thought i am, but turns out im not.. i've been goin out (in a friendly basis) with a really nice girl with the initial E.C and she's ok. everybody knows her, she's the daughter of a very famous actress, i liked her. but it just doesnt feels right. the chemistry was just aint.. right.. i like her, i really like her, i care for you and i loved her. just so you know.
and i know this other girl, her intial is A, she's a model, gadsam '04, a collegian majoring psychology, super cute, physically attractive, a 9,5, there's nothing wrong when you see her with your bare eyes, one of those girl that when you meet somewhere on the street you'd tell your friends "oh, i want that! i want her!" we spent the few days back together day and night but then i sensed something terribly aint right, she has a problem with honesty and that's a fatal flaw.. hey if you're reading this, i just want you to know that i know every lie you've said, e v e r y s i n g l e o n e o f ' e m. she makes up stories, dude. i always seem to catch you when you're lying about the stupidest of things. it's like a disease man, she just cant stop. we had talks on the parking lot and i told her this had to stop, i dont want to be in too deep..
ah well, that's enough about me and my boring relationship.. i didnt mean to hurt anybody.. aint that normal to want the best for ourselves and others?
i'm gonna stick with 'no commitment' yet until i've found the right one.

ah, the privelegde of being single.

anyway, what's bella doin right now?